2014: A Year Of Change

I'm a little behind to just now be talking about the new year but happy new year none the less!

When I look back over this past year I can check off some pretty big life goals. First I became a mother making it the biggest check off in my life's timeline ever. Second I graduated from college with my bachelors degree, a goal I wrote down in my childhood journal years ago. So you could say I did a lot and accomplished a lot in 2013, however I can't help but look back and feel like I did nothing, nothing but sit around and wait for my situation to change.

It was a very difficult year for me some of which I feel like I have already touched on here some I've still kept to myself because I'm not sure how to explain it. I'm still learning the ropes of motherhood and all the things that includes, I've struggled a lot this year and I don't want to anymore. This change in my life has been the most magical glorious thing to ever happen yet the most difficult and I feel like these struggles have held me back without me realizing it. I was afraid and I don't want to be anymore. I'm still not sure how to explain this but I want this year to be much different, I want to look back at 2014 and feel like I progressed, I feel at a huge stand still spiritualy, physically, and mentally.

I want to stop being so negative about my situation, I want to change the things that can be changed and let go of the things that can't. I want to travel, cook, read, and document my little ones life better. I want to be a better mother and wife. I want to be more grateful for the things I have and stop worrying about the future so much, things will work out! 

I want to have more fun! I feel like all I've done this past year is stress, I want to let go and enjoy myself more. I want to be more committed to my faith. I feel like the challenges I've faced this past year have pulled me away and I hate that. I want to love my husband better. Let him always know how much I love and appreciate him better. More date nights would be nice too. 

I want to unplug from this wonderful awful internet more and be in the present moment. iphones are a curse and a blessing, I just need to be more disciplined. 

Overall I just want to live a full life, fill each day with love, gratitude, and joy! I am in control of this and I can make it happen. Having written these goals out right after the new year on my phone I feel like I have already made some pretty good progress and hope to keep it that way!

Happy New Year! I hope it's been wonderful so far.